icedragon369

oh well, it was bound to dwindle at one point or another

i haven't posted anything in a long ass time.... i figured i ought to, in order to feel less creepy about reading other people's lives weekly without making a contribution....

well  no, not really. i don't know, i had the impression of some great unbelievably mind blowing thought. but i can't find it, so i don't know.

i find it ridiculous that this is the end of week 2 bt it feels more like the end of week 8. i'm frustrated ebcause i want to work on all my projects but the materials aren't here yet; because i have a vision that i can't seem to put into words and so people don't believe i will be able to accomplish it; because it feels like there's so much out there i've yet to explore but i'm stuck here.

not that the here and now isn't pleasant. at times it's unbelievably pleasant and i want time to stop. but then, then i'm alone, or at work, and it feels like a waste. whenever i'm alone and idle feels like a waste. it's funny that i should say that because i jst spent a couple of hours watching tv. it's the mindless repetition of work. dulls you down, makes you dumb, always same shit every day. and the frustration, oh god the frustration. and then you come to this: to enjoy a couple of hours in front of the tv, alone, with some ice cream cuz there's no hot chocolate left, enjoying some more mindlessness.

i hate it vehemently. i want to be out there, doing art, being important, leaving a mark on the world.  but there are so so so many steps to take before that and they're frustrating, with the false lies of freedom at this level.

signing out,
icedragon369

i got the letter T, so here it is. and no i didn't cheat :P

1. The Shades of - Seven Stories to Nowhere
2. Teenagers - My Chemical Romance
3. Too Little too Late - Metric
4. Turn a Square - The Shins
5. Truth Hits Everybody - The Police
6. Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie
7. This Celluloid Dream - AFI
8. Transylvania - Iron Maiden
9. Today - The Smashing Pumpkins
10. That Time - Regina Spektor


...of course, many many many other great songs starting with the letter T were omitted :P

so here i am, making the last (incidentally also the first) preparations for my departure tomorrow, and procrastinating on the internets, lol

packing is a hassle. it can be fun but its just too much running around and panicking about not forgetting anything. anyways.. i hope you all have a wonderful june/july aaaand i shall be seeing you in late july :D

have fun!

p.s. nicki's bbq was freaking awesome

lol well, to be honest there isn't that much o say, i don't think

mostly turning nocturnal, sleeping for the better part of the day and staying up for most of the night, usual summer routine

anyhoo, i put my prints on ze internets, so that's happy. also, i got most of my final grades back, and they aren't too bad (that, again, is happy lol)

and and and killer headache

sumemr is fun and all, but jsut as i see in everyone's posts, i do miss seeing everyone more often.

parent's night tomorrow should be fun, i hope.

and...hmm....yeah no more news. i have the constant feeling that i'm forgetting things

oh welll, till enxt time,
toodles,
ralu

it's funny how u can feel great one moment and then feel like shit once u do something stupid or once someone says something in particular

but...i won't get into some sad emo rant, i'm better than that, lol. instead i will talk about my hair

my hair is funny. i like it and it's intensely amusing. unfortunately i'm rather quite inept in the spiking domain (it will come my kitties, it will come). lol to be honest i rly like the fluffy. although the "liberty spikes" from today were INTENSE. lol but i dont think ill ever manage to do it on my own lol. either way, the "unicorn horn" is fun lol.

mmm cookies are good. yay, cookies=happy.

so i realized that i hadnt been here for a rather long long long time. and boy oh boy did i have things to read. lol.
uhm im not sure where im going with this. im not cracked out enough to make an interesting post. just tired to the point of uhm....this.

yes, the point of this. im not sure what i was talking about and im too lazy to reread previous paragraph to find out. moving on....i really have nothing to say, mostly procrastinating, so lateeer


on a side note....

(8) it's all good, it's all right, everybody gets laid tonight (8)

so i'm back
so i don't wanna work
but that's fine
i'm re energized and there's like what, 7 weeks left? wootAGE. alllright, i'm off. that is all, lol.
toodes

hmm, so it's been a while. ive been waiting until i had something to say. truth is, i don't really. then again, i always end up writing more when i have nothing to say (or i think so, at the very least)

ever notice how looking at old pictures eiter makes you nostalgic or put things back in perspective or just makes u angry and bitter? yeah damn. oh well. im not bitter. just a bit sad. long story short, resumed in one word: london. and yet it was a happy time. meh.

so i'm going to new york tomorro and i gotta wake up at some ridiculous time like 5 or 5:30 and yet i'm still not sleeping, go figure. pretty predictable though.

and so i bid you adieu 'til monday or sunday night. when i come back to real life and discover i'm behind on lots and lots of work and will be sad again. till then, taa taa

toodles

so what better day to start the day but by a random rambling on lj. i haven't been here in a while. i have soooo much work for this week and it's been making me melt (i'm melting! i'm melting! like the wicked witch of the west, albeit more slowly, and i do believe i'm not that wicked, lol).

i haaaave a research project due on thursday and it's big and has big shiny teeth and they're oh so sharp. man they're sharp. it's been gnawing on my shoulder -_-

oh well. i like modest mouse. they have cool music, yes

i saw this crazy dude on youtube that  made awesome charcoal portraits. im inspired but i have no time. daaaamn i can't wait until next week for march break = one long week of sleep and seeing downtown friends that i haven't seen in waaaaaay too long. oh and caroline, but she's another matter completely, lol.

i must finish chapterhouse:dune and begin paradise lost and dante's divine comedy!

well, i'm off to random running around house figuring out the other stuff i have to do and eventually doing some more procrastination.

taa taa

procrastination galore


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all is good and happy in ralu land at the moment

i'm happy enough to randomly post, but i don't have very much to say. that or i have so much i don't know what to start with, thus making my mind go boom. i was sure i was going to ramble for a long while.

let's just say that the i is in a happy place and is even happy about going back to abbott. that's right, i don't resent that at the moment. lol, i just hope im not coming down from this cloud anytime soon, if ever :P

and that's all for now
:D peace out

toodles!


_{wheee 'tis the 13th! too bad it isn't a friday, eh? :P}

good morning one and all, should you consider 2pm morning, as i do, tehehehe

a bit late perhaps, but on this 6th of january i wish you a happy new year :D
mwahahaha

seeing old friends is awesome, especially when u havent spent any time with them for quite a while

i'm again broke, lol. but it was for a good cause (getting me stuff, among which the afi dvd and such other randomness)

aaaaaaand erm....hmm i do believe that's about it.....registration wasn't all too bad. i have fridays off again :D that is the most awesome. i didn't get the english class i wanted but whatever, it's not too bad of a schedule....if you overlook the 4 hour break on thursdays...oh well

well enjoy this last week of sweetness



on a side not, 'tis not freaking winter! there's grass, and it's GREEN, dammit!

whoaaa the last entry was on crack!

anyways, wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! :D

(enjoy responsibly? :P)




_{hoping everything will be better after this nice long break}

well hello...i've been meaning to write for the past couple of days, only to realize that i had so much to write about that in fact i had nothing. it's weird that way, but it does work out, i assure you.

i'm afraid that i really am a horrible person, lol. there are times when i should have been therre for some ppl but i wasnt mostly cuz i was afraid of making a bigger mess of things, but in retrospect i should have been there. and there are ppl i constantly seem to antagonize just by being, im sorry about that. there's also the ppl i antagonize on purpose, lol... then there are the ppl who dislike me cuz its fun disliking me (i can see why it would be amusing, lol)

i'm not sure where i'm going with this. it's not exactly a rant, not a whole "world hates me" talk. it's just i'm happy and sometimes i feel bad about it and sometimes i just don't give a shit about anything else.

what else...i've realised ppl are the same everywhere: no matter where you go there will always be the back stories, the intrigues, the fights and disagreements and stuff. its quite silly to think otherwise, i now realise...

i also realise that there's no point to what ive been saying....i think i just needed to get that out there lol...

well i really wanted to appologize to anyone whom i might have hurt/saddened unknowingly

also, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays :D

tehehe i couldnt help myself o.O















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yeah i really couldn't help myself at all

allrighties...hmm these past two days passd so fast and so much stuff happened. haven't slept in my own bed for the past two days and i believe that since friday afternoon i haven't been home for more than 4 hours... it greatly amuses me...

anyhoo, so lots of fun fridya then saw Elisa, whom i hadn't sen in such such such a long time, on saturday...

aaaand what else...dunno...too lazy to go into details, besides they arent important to anyone but me, really...

still haven't recieved my final grades, which ticks me off a bit... and i need a job

yes....hmm this seemed much longer in my head. oh well

...

Then the heat disappears
And the mirage
Fades away